From my heart.

It ended so fast. but did it even started? When we first met I did not even noticed that you really exist, I never had this so-called love at first sight, not even an attraction. Days past and things has been the same, I am in a relationship and you are struggling for many complicated things in your life. I never thought and never ever imagine that this would lead into something else, I started to notice how badly you needed someone and I was the one who was there, I started to know the story and started to believe how good of a person you may seem, Do I love you? I do not know. From the moment I wished I was her was the same moment where I started to think I am falling. I looked up and reminded myself that I can not do this to my partner, but why there is something in you that I can not resist, the way you hold my hand, the way I feel about your hand around my waist, the moment when I thought you feel the same way, I never do things to start anything, it was you who started to treat me like I am not just an ordinary friend, but maybe just maybe a special one. I wanted you badly cause I thought you where the one God has wrote my love story with, I thought it was you who can make me complete, but I was wrong, for the nth time I am wrong. Do I have the right to complain? I do not know. All I know is that when you told me that you still was not able to move on it was the same time when my heart was broken again. I thought we had an emotional understanding that could lead us to something new, a brand new start for both of us. What happened? Am i not good enough for you? Am I not deserving of all the happiness in the world? I wanna be happy, I wanna share all the love I can give to someone, I dont know whats wrong. I do not know how to start fixing all these broken pieces. I know we never had this deep love story but all this time this were all real. I wanted you to be happy and I was willing to give up everything for "us", but maybe, just maybe you are not one deserving enough for the love I can give.